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I’m still here!!! Sun finally came out and I was out in short shorts and a cami to the park and some older gentleman definitely rubbernecked as he slowly drove by. Two thoughts I had: I look really bad or he’s secretly a freak 😝

Anyways I’m outside trying to figure out how I’m going to manage sunlight and sweating while hiding my face under makeup. Watch I’ll finally get a date and wind up looking like joker at the table “I’m melting!!”

Whatever. Why worry about things that aren’t happening?

More immediately, I need to find a place to live before the landlord sells this place 😬 and I just noticed some thigh hair as I’m lounging around here in the backyard. Bad to worse 😂

No job, no friends, no romance, no tits. Just my beard shadow and bulge to keep me company. For now. I got this!

Keep fit and have fun!!!

Dear Diary… another week of being me and smashing the patriarchy.

Saturday I was canceled on again for my laser treatment… so I’m not going back there. I’ll wait to see my doctor at the end of the month and ask for a referral since laser is covered by our healthcare just takes forever to get in, but maybe they won’t cancel.

So with this bumpy and wrinkled like a lunch bag face I went to a social. Which is essentially a party in a community hall, similar to a wedding reception with a DJ and drinks to purchase. Anyway it was a small but fun, LGBTQ event. Got to meet a few people and dance so that was absolutely fantastic!!

I was supposed to go see a work friend’s band tonight but I don’t know if I’ll make it, depending on my kids and bedtime and the babysitter.

Other than that I have not made noticeable progress but I’m working on voice consistency and how I carry myself. I still don’t love mirrors but occasionally I’ll see someone in them and feel hope.

Just gotta keep running up that hill!

Oh and I’m going to see Kesha and Slayyyter this summer unless they join the concert cancellation tournament 😬😝 positive thoughts and vibes!!

So that’s it for me, still gotta make some friends and find a job but whatever.

From the field of weeds, the heroes rescued the flower. 'Cause they possessed Turtle Power. ✌️😆

Keep fit and have fun
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Not so sweet D, here again as an update. My 2nd facial laser canceled and same day I missed my bloodwork. The lab was full of people lining out the door and I’m not Dee enough to push people out of the way. Maybe in a few more months 🤔

So I’m back to another month of waiting to get in a lab, and waiting to see the doctor for HRT. Meanwhile I’m practicing my makeup I hate my pores and beard shadow. Despite my skin and makeup I still plan on going out to some local events, solo.

I have no friends and that’s probably why I’m posting this. Maybe theres other people who feel the same way but haven’t decided on what to do. I’m proud to be the toe in the water, for such people 🤷‍♀️

I’m 39, friendless, blew up my nuclear family and am actually not even employed anymore, I work in art, not as dramatic as you think.

Despite these perceived loses I’m finally understanding myself and looking forward to the challenges of tomorrow instead of being crushed by them.

Keep fit and have fun ✌️