I feel like a failure, and im tired.
I want to die but also don’t. I don’t hurt myself in traditional sense, but I don’t eat or try to stop breathing. My parents told that I’m a failure and that everything they think of me I disappoint them. That I’m a failed investment. That there is something wrong with me. All because I want to become a teacher, all because I’m not becoming a doctor. And my dad just said he’s not going to let me in the apartment my brother is staying in anymore and to get a dorm but Idk if it’s too late to, so college might be done for me now. I’m tired, I try so hard for them, they came here to help me. But they won’t let me live my life. I walked an hour to school today, because my dad took the car away. Idk what to do. There’s no point anymore in trying with them or life. I don’t want any hotlines because I won’t do it, I just feel like it. Idk what I want, an escape, a solution. Both maybe idk