The reviews for capstone projects are going on and soon all 4th years would have left campus. I will be gone in the next few days. Most of my friends have already left. And I was just sitting in my room when it hit me that there will be no more of this lifestyle. We all are literally leaving behind a phase of life that comes only once.
Tomorrow I will wake up and there will be no one's alarm ringing repeatedly. No more shenanigans in the room with your roommates. No more random outings or lunch plans. It is all just over and everything feels so quiet for a goodbye that is supposed to be so big. Seeing your friends leave one by one, leaving yourself, packing up the entirety of your 4 years in a few suitcases, it just left me feeling so blank.
Some part of me is albeit excited about the life ahead. New job new city blah blah etc etc. But a part of me hurts very much that I have to let this go. These 4 years mattered way more than I thought they would. I would swear at the college the first chance I got. I still do. I never thought leaving this place would make me so emotional. It feels like we were freshers roaming around campus for the first time just a few months ago. But 4 years have passed just like that. And suddenly everyone is gone and there is no return. No more "Chhuti se aate waqt snacks lana ghar se". Just a permanent goodbye for arguably one of the most impactful phase in our lives. Fuck man I am gonna cry brb.