u/Fearless_War1683

im 14f, turning 15 this year on nov. my from india and my parents are like well off but not at the same time! since i was younger, i was being told "ur dad is going through this crisis so be UNDERSTANDING" and i was. im a high school freshman and my relationship with my family is detoriating. i had a fight with my mom a month ago where i was basically making chocolate pudding since i rlly like drinking it but i made like 3-4 dishes. my mum got RLLY MAD and told me she would make it the next time. i said i will wash the dishes when i make it from the next time but then she started saying how im such a horrible daughter and how kids "nowadays" never listen to anything. the food was in the kitchen so i came to my room and locked it(also whenever i lock a room, its for 15-20 mins so the other person calms down and then we have a conversation). i didnt hear my mum call me to get my food and then i heard a knock and saw her standing with my food crying. she said how im like my dad and see her as a servant and how im such a horrible daughter and bla bla. then i quickly locked my door before letting her enter it. then she started banging my door and then went to the washroom (its connected) and pulled the handle and it broke so she fell. then i heard her crying but the thing is that i've never seen her cry like that so i was rlly scared and maybe suspected it was fake. then i called my elder sister (who didnt pick my call) and my dad. i told him to call my mum. he asked if everythign was alright and i said yea it. my mum start calling me a kuttiya which means a bitch, a person she was ashamed to give birth to. a haramzaadi which is basically a swear word in hindi that means scoundrel. she kepts yelling my name and after 10 mins she stood up went to her room and called my sister and starting shittalking about me. then she told me to open my door and found the other key, opened the door and started hitting me saying horrible things to me. after an hour she told me not to call her mom and call her "my elder sister's mom". i was honestly rlly traumatized with this and like after a day, she came and said lets fix things. i said i dont want to and then she called me "dusht" which means wicked in english. after 2 hours later she came with fruits and started crying saying she wants to fix things. i fixed things with her since i dont have a choice but i didnt want to. she made a promise to me she would never hit me again but she hitted me again today and now im just tired. she told me today and like almost every 2 days that how i do nothing right. im sick. my friends in school are all fake, im the backup friend and im usually alone. im tired of everything.
even when i was like in 1st grade, i saw my dad choke my mother in a fight and like almost everyday or like every 2 days they have a fight. a year ago, they had fight! basically, we went shopping. the lady who was giving the clothes gave my mum a large size and she got mad. she thought she was calling her fat and i thought that was ridiculous. and then in the. changing room, i touched the shirt which she worse before in a "bad way" and she started yelling at me. i honestly dont know what that was but then they started having a fight in the over that topic and then he told her like in a manner which was "get out of the car". she OPENED THE CAR WHILE IT WAS MOVING. like my dad was stopping it but it was still moving and got out and was walking in the road. then when they came home, they started. my mum called her all sorts of things and my dad too. i even saw my dad choke my mum again in that and then my mum locked her door. then when i told her to open her door, she did and started blaming this on me.
I dont know what to do. im tired. im not lying, i swear! i honestly resent my parents for giving birth to me. why to have a child when ur not mentally alright and even financially.

im a 14 year old girl who has always struggled with her voice. i felt my speaking voice isnt clear and i've always been insecure about it. i thoguht maybe singing might help me improve my confidence and turn this insecurity to something i admire about myself. but i dont know where to start from and whether i should take singing classes or not. even when i do karaokes, i sound like a dying rat and my speaking isnt even that clear. im extremely introverted and tbh i hate talking to people because sometimes my voice isnt that clear and they cant understand or they laugh. i dont want to be like this. i cant even sing a song infront of my friends since i feel like my voice sounds terrible. please help me or guide me everyone!! i would rlly appreciate it : )))