u/Fearless_Ganache9276

I essentially enter a meditative state and guide myself through prompts, dialogue, etc to relax as deeply as possible. Im awake and alert through this but it feels like a part of me is becoming suggestible. Then I can basically speak anything I want into existence from that point and it really does change how I see everything afterwards. I think I pulled myself out of pretty intense cptsd doing this (enough to get outside help, make friends, hold down a job consistently, date again, etc). I always felt super ashamed of it because I thought it was just maladaptive daydreaming or over-hyping an active imagination but hypnosis actually fits the bill significantly better, plus it's something that would actively help and improve my life outside of "sessions" without me having to imagine anything. I thought I was just fucking crazy or something lol, i also wondered why other people don't just hypnotize themselves more but I realize now what I do is actually pretty difficult. I also am into meditation and other spiritual things but never found anything that actually described what this feels like until I learned about hypnosis. Is this common at all?? is it possible to accidentally self teach yourself this sort of thing? Im losing my mind a bit here lol.