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Why do I do this to myself?
I knew there was no chance
For you to fill the massive hole
That ruptured my heart

But when I look at you,
How could I say no?
Those eyes say more than a thousand words
And leave me wanting more.

But life has other plans for me. 
I know I am strong
But loneliness is a different beast,
That we could have beaten together.

When I’m with you,
The inner demons seem to disappear
But come back stronger when we say goodbye.
Leaving me emptier each time.

And yet I kept seeing you
Fully aware of how my mind works,
Wondering if the short-term bliss
Was worth the long-term woe.

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I posted a shorter version of this last week

When people look at you,
They would never guess
What you've hidden
Beneath your beauty.

The way you used to look at me
Soft, pink cheeks
A slight blush
That would warm my entire body.

I'm lucky enough,
To have gotten so close to you
But it will never be enough,
To break through the thorns.

Built from the past
People ripping you from the ground,
Leaving you scared
And alone.

But every spring, you blossom
That same belle I've known for years.
Even though I am in the shade now
Only able to watch.

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I've seen this before,
I know how it ends.
Like a movie I've watched
All the twists and bends.

But this time, it's not a movie
Far from it, something worse.
It's my mind
Trapped in a hearse.

Like a bad drug,
I'm in love with the bliss.
Confident enough,
To lean in for the kiss.

But I know deep down,
This feeling won't last.
And that's when I awake,
Realizing my moment has passed.

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The world isn’t cruel, 
People are. 
And every day, 
The birds hymn to the sunrise
And the sunsets rob us of our breath.

Sometimes I have to slow down
Take a second,
And really look around
Admire the world I get to live in
Before getting shoved back in

Consumed by distractions and vultures 
Who distract me from the fact
That life is so beautiful.
And on this spinning rock, 
I have a purpose

We all do.

Our days are numbered
And we don’t know the aggregate.
So while we’re here,
Why not do what we’re meant to do?

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When people look at you
They would never guess
What you’ve hidden
Underneath your beauty.

But I see what they cannot
Touched where they have not.
Faced the fear of getting too close
And still, wouldn’t change a thing.

Even though I am in the shade now
Only able to watch.

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