My (M19) relationship with my girlfriend (F19) have been rocky and I don't know what to do.
I'm in a relationship, my partner is great she's kind, smart, understanding, cheerful, loyal, and beautiful. But I haven't been in "love" per se, since a long time in the relationship. What I thought was love is akin to a a feeling of care that I can only describe in Indonesian as "Sayang". I have felt like this because of a lot of things: Her personality that is childish at times, her stubbornness, her clingyness, etc.
Now at times I feel guilty and inadequate because I know that most of the traits aren't as bad as it sounds and maybe its just me that is weird. I have this conversation where I talked about all of this to her, she wants to accept me for all of this and want to keep the relationship. But lately I started to want to feel love again as a whole and I have been soft-launching the idea of breaking up to her which she still responds the same to.
To add on it, I never showed it to anyone or my girlfriend, but physically I have been attracted to other women. I dated my girlfriend purely because of her personality which was great at first. I know I'm pretty horrible and I probably need therapy so no need to tell me that.
Is there a possibility or a way to fix this relationship? or I should just really end this for the both of us?
TL;DR I have been losing feelings and attraction, Can I fix this? or ending it is the best for us?