Day 32: Grateful for the Pause, Unsure whether to moderate or stay abstinent
After 15 years of regular, light use (5-7 nights/week), I completely paused weed a little over a month ago. At first I felt euphoric being weed free - anxiety went way down, dreams returned, my feelings felt clearer. I am 49 and the pause felt much harder during PMS. But the truth is I was not enjoying pot too much toward the end - it was making things dense and dizzying. But I miss many things too - especially dancing and stretching and listening to music while a little high, and I could tolerate my difficult family so much more. I get it, it was muting things as they are, but also life felt more fun and tolerable. Those of you who have taken pauses and returned, what have you found? Have you been able to moderate? I think my longterm plan leans toward abstinence, but also this was the first significant break I have had, and am curious if I could handle 1-2 times a week and enjoy safely.