I have a very serious nose picking problem (please don't judge).
I am 21 and this is something only my family knows. My friends have co-workers have definitely seen it at some point, I am sure. I have been picking my nose every 5 minutes all my life, like the entirety of it. I remember doing that even as a 9 year old. As you can imagine, my nose is always bleeding and then I go ahead and pick those scabs. And it bleeds more. Even as I type this, there is bleed in my mouth and throat. The blood drips down my throat and mouth. Every time I have gone to an ENT and they have put the scope thingy up my nose, it's bloodbath in there - quite literally. The first thing I do every day when I wake up is pick my nose for a good number of minutes. The addiction is genuinely so bad that I can't resist and keep on doing it in classes, office, social settings etc when I think no one is watching. But since I do it every 5-10 minutes, I am sure it has been noticed by every single person.
I keep my nails extremely short, like I trim them every 5 days. But that has not stopped me. Neither has the rubber band on wrist trick. I have kinda stopped trying but I do not like tasting blood 6 days a week. Some times, the nose drips blood too. Then I just sit with tissues and try to hide it.
I feel so ashamed but I really don't know how to make it stop. This habit has been there for like 10 years, if not more. This is the first time I am voicing this out to anyone, even though I do not believe in TMI and my friends know almost everything about me no matter how embarrassing.
I hope to get better. But it is so, so satisfying. Like it is lowkey my dose of dopamine. It is so satisfying in a weird way. I do it every 5 minutes when I am stressed and I am stressed 24/7. I wish I could fight this. So ashamed.