I feel bad for being jealous/depressed
My partner and I have been trying for only 5 months. Not that long, but I've wanted kids for more than half my life now. In those 5 months, I've had 5 friends/coworkers share pregnancy announcements. It's been a little hard to hear, but I've been able to be happy and excited for them. Yesterday, a coworker announced she was going to have twins and I just lost it. I managed to make it to the bathroom before balling my eyes out. I cried 3 more times over the course of the day before I was able to go home, and sobbed more. I hope she didn't notice; I really am very excited for her. I'm worried about breaking down again at work and making her feel bad or like I'm trying to take attention away. My partner has been very supportive of me, being reassuring cause its still early. I didn't expect to become so discouraged so quickly; it makes me feel weak and guilty. There are so many emotions I didn't expect to have ao early on.