Lived a whole lifetime in minutes …Overwhelming
I joined in to tell you about my crazy Trip…I had a crazy Salvia experience that I still can’t wrap my head around…. It started with me sitting on my couch when I suddenly felt myself collapsing inward, spiraling into a blurred mandala. It felt like a vortex…From the outside, I saw my physical body looking like a giant statue, while my friends turned into shifting colors.
Then, I was pulled in completely. I found myself in a world made of colors I’ve never seen before. For a moment, I stood in a glass cube, looking at myself. I looked painted completely defined, with a physique I can only describe as a 'dream body' (maybe 4% body fat, something impossible to maintain here).
I had a life there. I lived in a house made of ancient stones that looked like Glowstones from Minecraft. I knew, with absolute certainty, that my purpose was to organize animal races. I lived in a village that felt 'un-modern,' like a Stone Age civilization but with more possibilities.
I had a beautiful wife and a young son who was already gathering wood and building fires. My life consisted of organizing races between Mammothscreatures the size of family houses—against other strange beings I didn't recognize. People would bet money on them. Years went by. I felt everything: deep love, joy, and a sense of belonging. I went on trips riding Mammoths and Bisons. I remember 'masked security units' in the village that looked like cartoon characters. My hands felt like natural weapons; I felt like a gladiator, surrounded by other men who were just as strong. There was a man named Arturo who had a whale as a pet. We were rivals, but we shared a deep mutual respect.
The end came when I was swimming in a lime-green lake, feeling the waves against my skin. Suddenly, I saw a reflection of my old room in the water. My smile vanished. A feeling of dread hit me. I was pulled back into that spiral vortex. I screamed in panic as the world blurred away.
I woke up in my room, staring at the wall for like 10 minutes. My friends were laughing and trying to calm me down, but I just started crying. As my memories of that 'other' world came back, I felt completely alienated from this reality. This 'real' world feels materialistic and wrong. I took a walk alone and have never felt more like a stranger. My wife and child are gone. I miss them deeply, and I’m struggling to accept that this life here is supposed to be the 'real' one.".. im so devestated and i know this is our here and now.. but maybe someone had a similar crazy experience and can help me how to accept better… i heard many Stories of people who lived as some tree or a book and i was really scared at first but it was somewhere hard to believe, i dont took nothing else ever in my life so you can just imagine how hard it felt. I was completely away and my friends told me i was going crazy and staring them in their soul . i dont know if i would do something like that ever again because it feels absolutely awful to get kicked back. Its so overwhelming