u/Fantastic_Rip_8251

Sometimes I feel like that NTA ko laya ki NEET leak krwane and rich Aspirants ko govt clg ya Aiims dilwane k liye hi h.. Taki jo mehnat kr rha h vo mehnat hi krta rhe and jo rich h vo ik Saal bhi apna khrb na kare and online shopping krke Govt seat le jaye ✌️

I saw many ppl who can't sleep last night and were studying whole night..

Kya main iklouti aisi species hoo jo 2nd drop lene k baad bhi, koi prep ni ki and ghode bechke soyi ya mere jaise or bhi h..

I feel guilty cause of sleeping now lol 🥲🥲😭😭

Idk I should be talking about this here.. But my marks aren't improving till yet.. I am so much under revision ki ab revision krne ka Mann bhi ni kr rha..

This was my 2nd drop (partial one) and 1st drop full Tha.. Uss time kuch ni ukhad payi to ab kya hi hoga lol..

I wasted whole 4 years (11th,12th, first drop and 2nd) in masti, movies, kdramas and idk kya kya.. even though I got a bit serious this time like I completed whole Bio, 50% Chem and 50% physics but mere se ab or ni ho rha.. more like Kiya ni ja rha.. Jo bhi Maine padha, jitney mere pass notes and study material h sab aise hi rkha hua h aj.. Mera Mann hi ni kr rha uthane ki main padhu ise..

Boht under revision h, even bio bhi revise ni ki h... Mock diye but vo dekhe or depression Chad rha h..

I am giving some state exams too but bhot jyada regret ho rha h iss time.. ki Kitna accha socha Tha apne liye but yeh procrastination sb dooba gya.. I wanted to be doctor but ab future hi blurry dikh rha h..

I am thinking of one more drop but I don't wanna be stuck in this loop forever.. Mera cousin IIT se btech krke niklne wala h.. Mere saath k frnds sb clg me mje kr rhe h.. and here I am again stuck in this loop.. I am currently 20 to age bhi matter krti h mere liye.. Idk what should I be doing.. Should I take drop or move on?