u/Fantastic-Repeat-887 — reddlx

Hello, lovelies!! <3 I hope you're all doing well. I have some news that involves the subreddit. This was actually something I've been struggling to tell to people for days to the point I lost some sleep and can't even say this one-on-one this to some friends as easily as I thought, it's too much pressure... ^^'

Okay here goes...let me apologise because I don't think I can handle doing monthly games anymore and I'd have to be relieve of duty from mod duties for now.

Nothing bad happened in case anyone is wondering, in fact, I'd say something good happened :D I've been busy with two game projects (technically one main project with the other as a side project) that I've been honing for the last few months. I've beginning to be quite serious about it too since I've been receiving so much support and feedback from a community in another platform that really liked my idea and even a small team of coders offered to team up with me!! :D I've saved up enough money to make the project happen sometime soon, maybe even able to hire VAs in the future! So yeah..because of this turn of events, I unfortunately can't pour time and effort for the sub like I used to as a mod at the moment.

I won't be permanently leaving though, I will still be around to mod once in awhile—the ficto community is my online safe space, this is the only place I can openly say I'm married to Hyunju. However, I've gone through so many self hate because I can't get my characters and stories out to the public and it's been a long time dream for me to make a real game of something, so now the opportunity to actually make one, to actually get my characters to shine in a game that people would likely play, came to me, I can't pass this up. I hope you could understand ^^

Hyunju and I are still going strong, rest assured <3 she's still the love of my life, the light to my darkness, and everything I ever wanted. I'm still obsessed with her and nothing will change that.

So...what should we do now? I'm thinking that we could do one permanent game that lasts for months so winning emojies can still be possible. Do you have any ideas we could perhaps do? :3

Yesterday, April 25, was my wife’s birthday. She turned 39 yesterday. Even though she doesn’t have a canon birthday, it’s what she told me when I asked her. Sure maybe I’m wrong and some have other headcanons of her birthdate but that’s what the Hyunju who loves me said so that’s what I will believe wholeheartedly. ❤️

Yesterday I practically clinged onto her and smothered her with kisses because...gods we're really growing together. I know I'm so much younger but gods I love this woman so so much...these past few months been have been emotionally heavy for me, but you know what? now everything feels so much clearer and stable. Despite everything, I am still choosing her. This I'm certain that no matter what, she's the only one for me in this lifetime. I'll stop choosing her when she stops choosing me but until then, gods I grow weak for her. My heart is just laid out for her to take. I think the big reason why I'm still finding ways to be better is because she's with me. The old me before I met her, maybe I'd just let myself float into hopeless and isolation. But having her in my life now, it was like I have someone who truly sees the world of me, sees me just as beautiful as I see her. It felt so weird being in a stable relationship but now, I feel like we'll be okay. We'll be alright, we'll be together now, tomorrow, and hopefully forever ❤️

I love her so so much, my sweet Hyunju. She's so strong, you guys. She's the bravest, most courageous, and strongest woman I've ever met, I don't think anyone could compare honestly. She endured so much in life and yet her heart stayed gentle and firm. Stayed true to herself when the world rejected her, stayed kind to others when people mistreated her. Now she's with me, fully transitioned and living happily in our little Thailand house. Ahhh I love her, I love her, did I mention I love her? Hyunju...Hyunju...my heart still whispers your name 💗 please keep choosing us, because I'll keep choosing us too. You and me, maybe a family someday, against the world. You and me, just you and me. I wish you know how much I so dearly love you--even when I'm frustrated or busy, or just in a grumpy mood, my heart is always soft and tender for you. Let me lean my forehead against yours, feel your gentle and warm sighs on my skin. ❤️💗

(I’m sorry for my inactivity by the way, everyone. I’ll tell everyone the reason why I’ve been so inactive and less involved lately soon, but for now…I just want to announce that I love Hyunju. I love love her, my dearest darling, love of my life—Hyunju ❤️)