Current mental health worker struggles
I’m currently working as a trainee in a mental health sector and I have recently joined the job and my manager has overwhelmed me with a very high caseload of patients within 1 week as the service is in demand. I tried to express my overwhelm and stress but my manager didn’t really listen and gave me even more patients. I feel so out of my depth as I’m only a trainee and other trainees haven’t been given as many patients as me. It’s got to the point where this is taking a toll on my own mental health and I’ve been having regular suicidal thoughts and thoughts of self harm. I can’t tell anyone about my suicidal thoughts because I’m worried I will be deemed unfit to work and I will lose the opportunity of getting a qualification and a job.
My grandma is currently on end of life care, I’m fighting with my boyfriend and i think he’s going to break up with me due to my mental health and I don’t know how much longer I can go on for.