Okay, so basically I changed schools and countries, and when I left my previous school,ol a lot of my "friends" stopped talking to me. I was pretty sad, but then I realized that there were 2-3 people who didn't, and I was happy. Let's name one of them Ben. Ben talked to me throughout his holiday, since he is in boarding school,l and we became close, and he was my favourite person. I looked forward to his holidays. I had an est friend from when I was in the previous school, who we call Kit. Kit didn't really talk much to me, probably cause he didn't have a phone then,n but we still called when he could. While I was in school, Kit didn't really talk to me, and we weren't really close. We had a weird way of becoming best friends anyway.
One day, he just randomly asked in class, "Who wants to be my best friend?" and I said yes(sue me. I was desperate for friendship during that time). We became "best friends" and idk it just didn't feel like we were actual best friends, but I mean..idk how it was supposed to be, but we didn't connect. He was a lazy student, and I felt like his mother tryna convince him to read all the time. He didn't even try,y and I was like, " That's not my business, 'cause he chooses what he wants to do, and who am I to force him to read. He was also very disrespectful to teachers, and the class laughed, but it was embarrassing, and I was angry because how could he be so rude to teachers? I sometimes felt kinda weird when he said I was his best friend. Anyways, he never actually talked to me, but only did so sometimes because we sat close to each other. He didn't really share private things with me... Everything "personal," he told me, he also told someone else. I kinda thought being best friends meant we yk.. shared stuff. I told him my crushes and stuff, but I felt kinda weird telling him personal things 'cause we didn't really seem to vibe. One time, one of my friends called him and asked him to rate us. We had this stuff in our school that was Face, Breast, Butt, Personality, and Confidence(I think?), and boys rated girls with this. He rated my friend,d and I didn't really want to do that. I expected him to yk.. have some respect for me and not rate me, but guess what... he didnt instead he rated me and gave me a two for butt and a 1 for breast. Btw, I am offended because I personally don't think any of my properties are that small,l but the problem is the fact that the RATED me.
This Ben guy became closer to me, and then I asked him to be my best friend, and he agreed. We became best friends, and it was awesome. I was free with him; he was free with me. I shared stuff with him and felt safe and comfortable. But recently he asked me who my best friend was, and I said him, but then he said he thought it was Kit (NOTE: They are both friends and we went to the same school. They also go to each other's houses and play games). I told Ben that stuff happened that I can't be best friends with Kit, and I said I'll tell him later. But the problem is I haven't actually spoken about an official breakup yet with Kit, and idk if I need to, because he still texts me, but like I said, we didn't act like best friends or have the chemistry.
Advice please🙏
btw I'm a girl