Hi everyone, this might sound kinda stupid, but I really don’t know who else to talk to about this, so here I am.
About 5 months ago, on my birthday, a friend of mine tried to kiss me. (both females) She kept saying no one would hear us and stuff. We ere both drunk, so after thinking about it a lot later, I kinda just let it go. She’s always been kinda touchy hugging me, being close, but I always thought it was normal. That night felt different though. At one point she was really close to me, like her lips were almost pressed against mine while we were talking. It wasn’t really a kiss, but still.
Since that day I feel weird about her. I’ve never really liked girls before, like maybe I’d think someone was pretty, but that’s it. She told me the same thing too. We’re both “attractive” I guess, we’ve both had plenty of guys interested in us, but she never mentioned liking girls or anything.
The subject has not been talked about since the day of my birthday, sometimes I feel that she looks at me strangely, or hugs me too much, but recently we all started going to college so I decided to distance myself so I could think a little better about all this, i think its been like a month since i last saw her, but tomorrow we are planning to go out to have some drinks…
It’s 3am right now and I can’t sleep, my head just keeps going in circles. And honestly, this is kinda embarrassing to admit, but I can’t stop thinking about her sexually. I’ve always liked guys, so this is really confusing for me.
I don’t really know what to do or how to deal with this. She’s been my friend since we were like 2 years old, we basically grew up together. I don’t even know if I should talk to her about it or just ignore it, especially since I don’t see myself actually being in a relationship with a girl.
Anyway, I just needed to get this off my chest and maybe hear what other people think lmao