Not really connecting with my uni
As BDD (Yale’s admitted student event) wraps up, I realize I didn’t feel anything special toward my uni. I met loads of new people but everything felt so cliquey.
I look around at all the other prefrosh and they’re smiling and following groups, but I find a new group of frosh to trail like every hour. I was prepared to be overwhelmed but this is crazy. The most fun I had, I’ve realized, was in small events that hardly anyone goes to. I genuinely might have crashed out already if not for those.
Anyway, I’m really hoping this gets better. For some reason I had this preconceived notion that because I matched with my #1 school, we were perfectly compatible.
I know this probably sounds ungrateful (and I definitely didn’t hate BDD) but most of the time I felt out of place and quite alone.