u/FaithlessnessFar3213

Mom and uncle have hypertension, grandpa dialysis, I have been having high bp since 17 with a high hr it goes down with anxiety meds and sometimes without but was never put on bp meds I have long lasting bad habits towards myself, upped ibuprofen use last year then stopped. been having bubbly urine months after I got rlly sick but it wasnt beer foam so I didn’t get help…a week ago 2026 at an er with 3 panic attacks 190 hr 177/101 bp no water no food my results came back as 2+ protein 2+ ketones, carbon dioxide of 19 + symptoms and I’m crying becuase I’m sure I caused kidney disease this young. My egfr and bun is fine but I am not.

Mom and uncle have hypertension, grandpa dialysis, I have been having high bp since 17 with a high hr it goes down with anxiety meds and sometimes without but was never put on bp meds I have long lasting bad habits towards myself, upped ibuprofen use last year then stopped. been having bubbly urine months after I got rlly sick but it wasnt beer foam so I didn’t get help…a week ago 2026 at an er with 3 panic attacks 190 hr 177/101 bp no water no food my results came back as 2+ protein 2+ ketones, carbon dioxide of 19 + symptoms and I’m crying becuase I’m sure I caused kidney disease this young. My egfr and bun is fine but I am not.

Ive been having high blood pressure and a hr of 150 since I was 17, and a family member of mine told me kidney issues run in my family, they were all older than me but I’m repeating the same self inflicted neglect pattern, tho I don’t drink or anything but my water intake has been so low, I have a long term habit of holding it in, and a bad diet. my carbon dioxide was 19 over a week ago and a little protein in my urine but my bun and other markers are normal. I’ve had bubbly pee since 2025, I also had a small pink circle in my urine before. this is def ckd1??? I know no one can diagnose me but I’m crying and this is horrible potential news for my ocd gad and learning disability because I CANNOT HAVE PERMANENT HEALTH ISSUES from the stuff I CAUSED I DONT WANT SOMEONE ELSES KIDNEY IN ME, and once the damage is done it’s done?? NOO is there no hope?? And DEATH! I also think I have pots diabetes, cancers, I feel like I’m chronically ill, and that I’m going to die soon. I’ve had the weirdest symptoms since a kid like black vision when standing up and purple skin and every lab is out of range from back then, AND RAGING HEARTBURN FOR YEARS. IM NOT DIAGNOSED WITH ANYTHING MAJOR BESIDES SCOLIOSIS OAS ALLERGY, BUNIONS, js mild stuff can someone also js give me some advice everything abt me is fucked up my teeth are fucked, my life is fucked I’m scared of getting the billionth tests that I clearly need IM UNMEDICATED.