I’m new to the faith and trying to take it seriously but I’m also currently in an immoral relationship I haven’t read most of the bible and have much to learn and I wonder how I will understand especially if services are in Greek or Russian this may seem ignorant ur of little understanding because it is to be frank I’m interested because I hear this is the true church and I need change
I have been so anxious since trying to join Christianity that I’ve been missing school, appointments, and barely leaving my room/house. I’m worried I may be ill and am scared of god punishing my sin with illness/something bad. I stopped watching porn but sometimes I see attractive women on social media or tv and fantasize about them or wish I could watch porn. This worries me because even though I don’t watch porn I still lust and crave sin which we are told to hate sin and not want worldly things. Even when I pray or read I get perverse or blasphemous intrusive thoughts and mental images that disturb me. I feel My relationship with God is out of fear and not love which isn’t true relationship. This and doubt makes me feel like I am not saved and every waking second Has me in fear.