Hi all. First time Mom to an almost 1 year old here. A little background about me. Conceived baby unexpectedly quickly after getting married. Had a difficult 9 months of pregnancy (morning sickness, acid reflux, migraines, etc). Had an urgent c-section. Had 4 months of maternity leave. Returned back to work and 6 weeks later quit to pursue being a SAHM. Our families don’t live nearby so I’ve essentially had no outside help aside from my husband. I’ve been exclusive breastfeeding my son for almost a year but now starting to wean him off.
One of the biggest struggles I’ve had since I became pregnant and now almost 12 months postpartum, is my lack of interest in intimacy. My libido is low, my exhaustion is high, I’m constantly feeling touched out by the end of the day because my son constantly wants to be held. By the time there’s any time for myself I just want to be alone. I don’t want to talk, I don’t want to entertain and I certainly don’t want to be touched or kissed or pursued sexually. This has been really tough on my marriage because I know my husband craves the intimacy and closeness. But sometimes if he touches me when I have a moment to myself my skin crawls because I just don’t want to be touched.
What’s wrong with me? He’s a great husband and father and I’m still attracted to him. Why can’t I relax and be open to his touch? Will my libido and desire for him return? It’s been really challenging for both of us to navigate.