u/Extra-Region-2414

I've always had health anxiety, but lately it's in overdrive. To the point where I'm not suicidal (I love my life) but I'm at peace with just being done.

Because of my job and looking down all day I deal with chronic pain everyday and it's really just debilitating. I've done chiro, physical therapy, acupuncture, and get bi-weekly massages.

Honestly I have such a good life and it's really frustrating living with tension and anxiety all day everyday.

I'm hypersensitive to my body and everything feels so exaggerated all the time. I feel so many things with my nerves.

Recently my lower eyelids will not stop twitching and my mouth even feels weird. It's dry and feels weak or something. It's very hard to describe. My entire head just feels like it's twitchy. I feel like my speech seems weird and I'm messing up words but everyone close to me tells me I sound fine and I'm probably just in my head.

I get on and off caffeine for my migraines and right now I'm on day 8 of no caffeine because I was having such horrible brain fog. I just don't do well with caffeine.

I just bought a book to log things, but does anyone else ever feel like this?

I was laying in bed and cracked my neck like I usually do when I feel like I need to release tension (I know I shouldn't) instantly my ear started ringing and hasn't stopped.

Has anyone done this before and what did you do to get rid of it?

I hope it isn't permanent.

Does anyone else get pain in this area? It's in front of the ear, but above it.

I'm 38 and have no idea what's going on with my body. This started after my last baby at 34 (extreme fatigue but sleeping much more than I did in my 20s and early 30s). About 6 months ago I started getting bad cystic acne. I've never had acne in my entire life and work on the skin for a living. I can't even extract a zit without it leaving a scar or line on my face from lack of elasticity. I have not changed anything in my diet, vitamins, etc.

I've been noticing so many skin changes, constant joint pain, and for the past few weeks facial flushing as well as just feeling hot in general when I've ALWAYS been cold.

My periods seem to be the same length as always, but the past couple of years heavier for a day or 2 then very light. My mom had her last period at 57 so I thought I would go through this much later if it is the start of menopause.