u/External_Occasion_48

I'm a first year radiology resident, coming upto the end of my first year and most days I feel no smarter than I was 9 months ago. I recently messed up in work which may result in a patient having a repeat procedure and I cannot stop beating myself up about it. I feel like the stupidest person in my programme. I work really hard, study hard, I'm enthusiastic at work, always try my best and get I along with everyone in the department but I still feel this overwhelming sense of dread and imposter syndrome like someone is going to come along and kick me out. I don't know if feeling like this is radiology specific because all of your mistakes are there in black and white for your attending to see and judge you on or because of the steep learning curve but I would love to know if others have felt like this before and how to overcome it so I don't spend all of my time with this sense of being a fraud