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I had met this girl at a club and she stopped me from joining the dancing scene because she told me that “i couldn’t go into the group until I was dancing” I was on my phone trying to meet my asshole “friends.” Somehow part of my drunk self realize that she was trying to flirt and then we ended up talking and basically we end up making out at the end of the night and she asked to go home with her and I said no unfortunately and I truly do regret that but the point is that she went around and made out with a bunch of different random men throughout the club and night though she kept coming back to me and at that point another girl i met through her. i was the last person as far as i know she was making out with and i said no to going home with her which AGAIN I FUCKING REGRET. and as i’m making out with her in front of the entire club i say what about the men you were kissing CUZ IM A JEALOUS BITCH and she goes “i’m not straight” and i go “i can fucking tell” as i’m milímeters away from her lips like no shit. anyway i remember one of the songs and i was drunk asf but fully was down and just like what r the thoughts??

I had met this girl at a club and she stopped me from joining the dancing scene because she told me that “i couldn’t go into the group until I was dancing” I was on my phone trying to meet my asshole “friends.” Somehow part of my drunk self realize that she was trying to flirt and then we ended up talking and basically we end up making out at the end of the night and she asked to go home with her and I said no unfortunately and I truly do regret that but the point is that she went around and made out with a bunch of different random men throughout the club and night though she kept coming back to me and at that point another girl i met through her. i was the last person as far as i know she was making out with and i said no to going home with her which AGAIN I FUCKING REGRET. and as i’m making out with her in front of the entire club i say what about the men you were kissing CUZ IM A JEALOUS BITCH and she goes “i’m not straight” and i go “i can fucking tell” as i’m milímeters away from her lips like no shit. anyway i remember one of the songs and i was drunk asf but fully was down and just like what r the thoughts??

I had met this girl at a club and she stopped me from joining the dancing scene because she told me that “i couldn’t go into the group until I was dancing” I was on my phone trying to meet my asshole “friends.” Somehow part of my drunk self realize that she was trying to flirt and then we ended up talking and basically we end up making out at the end of the night and she asked to go home with her and I said no unfortunately and I truly do regret that but the point is that she went around and made out with a bunch of different random men throughout the club and night though she kept coming back to me and at that point another girl i met through her. i was the last person as far as i know she was making out with and i said no to going home with her which AGAIN I FUCKING REGRET. and as i’m making out with her in front of the entire club i say what about the men you were kissing CUZ IM A JEALOUS BITCH and she goes “i’m not straight” and i go “i can fucking tell” as i’m milímeters away from her lips like no shit. anyway i remember one of the songs and i was drunk asf but fully was down and just like what r the thoughts??

I had met this girl at a club and she stopped me from joining the dancing scene because she told me that “i couldn’t go into the group until I was dancing” I was on my phone trying to meet my asshole “friends.” Somehow part of my drunk self realize that she was trying to flirt and then we ended up talking and basically we end up making out at the end of the night and she asked to go home with her and I said no unfortunately and I truly do regret that but the point is that she went around and made out with a bunch of different random men throughout the club and night though she kept coming back to me and at that point another girl i met through her. i was the last person as far as i know she was making out with and i said no to going home with her which AGAIN I FUCKING REGRET. and as i’m making out with her in front of the entire club i say what about the men you were kissing CUZ IM A JEALOUS BITCH and she goes “i’m not straight” and i go “i can fucking tell” as i’m milímeters away from her lips like no shit. anyway i remember one of the songs and i was drunk asf but fully was down and just like what r the thoughts??

I had met this girl at a club and she stopped me from joining the dancing scene because she told me that “i couldn’t go into the group until I was dancing” I was on my phone trying to meet my asshole “friends.” Somehow part of my drunk self realize that she was trying to flirt and then we ended up talking and basically we end up making out at the end of the night and she asked to go home with her and I said no unfortunately and I truly do regret that but the point is that she went around and made out with a bunch of different random men throughout the club and night though she kept coming back to me and at that point another girl i met through her. i was the last person as far as i know she was making out with and i said no to going home with her which AGAIN I FUCKING REGRET. and as i’m making out with her in front of the entire club i say what about the men you were kissing CUZ IM A JEALOUS BITCH and she goes “i’m not straight” and i go “i can fucking tell” as i’m milímeters away from her lips like no shit. anyway i remember one of the songs and i was drunk asf but fully was down and just like what r the thoughts??

i’ve recently started dressing more masc sometimes and have noticed that men give me a certain head nod sometimes. i never get this when dressed more fem. it has happened more than 5 times at this point… they make eye contact with me like accidentally, more like we look up or pass each other, and they head nod me. again, mind you, this has ONLY happened when i dress more masculine. what does this mean? i’m new to this. like is this some mutual understanding and acceptance im receiving of us both liking women? i’m lost. lmk your thoughts.

realizing so many things throughout my life make it clear i’m definitely not straight
scared to look at the VS window displays?
jealous of my friends being friends with pretty girls bc i wanted to be “friends” with them
obsessing over girls i met once or saw a picture of

w guys it was more superficial
liking and wanting them to like me
but not LIKING them as a person
everyone else it’s a different story

am i the only one?

i was away from my toxic family for so long… now that i’m back home my anxiety and stress about abandonment from friends i care about is coming back. i can see im better in some ways but scared im going to get worse again unless i get out. overthinking and ruminating about everything related to my friends who i care about so much, favorite person situations. anyway any advice to get through for right now? i dont want to regress and end up in psych again