u/External-Tackle1929

So for context i’m 16, I dated this guy for 2 years and he completely ruined my life. Starting from the beginning there was this girl who liked him in his class and he entertained it and I didn’t even care that much all I said was to stop talking to her. He was arguing for a bit but then he said okay fine so he told her he can’t talk to her because he has a gf. She then started texting my friend and was asking if I can fight and she admitted she wanted my ex. I didnt even care about that part but I asked her why is she asking if I can fight because I literally had no intentions over fighting over a guy. Then she started wanting to fight me so she was pressing me at school and he was just standing there and did not say anything. She let literally harassing me sending stickers of me in group chats and coming up to me like everyday. I was so done with this because she got her friends involved and it was like 10 girls and I wasn’t gonna let myself get bullied so I was like okay whatever and then one of her friends wanted to fight me so we did and I was winning but then like 5 girls started jumping me for like a minute and my ex was there, just watching and laughing and didn’t care even though this clearly started over him and sent the video to his friends. I got suspended and got in trouble and didn’t know where to go so when i went to him basically crying he didn’t even care and got mad at me because I was upset in front of his friends. For some reason I decided to forgive him for all this even though he didn’t even ask if i’m okay. A couple weeks later me and him are still talking and he goes on a 2 man with his friend and his friend sends me a video of him laughing. He picked this other girl he met in one day over me at the time when i was with him for like 6 months. He was also with this other girl that created problems with me over him in the past and cheated on me with her but I didn’t know about this until a whole year later. Then, me and him go and hang out and he tries to rape me and when I push him and tell him to stop I just go home because he wasn’t stopping. Then he said he was high and didn’t know what he was doing and he didn’t “hear me” even tho I was clearly pushing him away from me. Then he proceeds to lie to his friends and say me and him had sex and I gave him head when I didn’t and his friend started bullying me sending stickers of me to random people saying I suck dick and i‘m a whore and this rumour gets spread out to literally the whole city because in school he would just tell everyone and once I was going to the mall and the same girl who jumped me over him came up to me asking to take it outside and wanted to fight me. I kept saying no and she was fighting with me over him again and I was so confused and 10 girls were saying that i had sex with the guy and ima. whore and they all took pictures of me and posted it on their stories like multiple girls and at that point i was so done with my life already, but I thought he wasn’t associated with that girl anymore so I was confused why she was fighting me over him. And then I find out he was lying and calling her behind my back in a groupchat with his friends and telling her to do that and stuff. Because I stopped talking to him when he tried to rape me?? Everyone says i’m a liar even though I wanted it to be no one’s business and people were posting stories saying to stop sending him to court and I wanted dick up my ass and i’m a whore and so much hurtful things and everyone i talk too or associate with already know about these rumours and its the first thing they have to say about me even a year later, a girl fought me a couple months ago because she said im a whore and she was friends with him. This was a whole different girl and now i have a permanent scar on my back. I have no one to talk to about this and if you read it through all the way pls just give me some advice because I don’t know how to get over this. He was taking my clothes off and was holding me down when I was trying to get up and I get so disgusted when anyone even comes close to me, like I feel so scarred and broken.