The title, well, that’s what it’s like almost.
I am 17, yes I am young but do not treat me as naive or stupid. I have been put through hell and as a product have had to leave education or any chance i have for the future to focus on myself & heal, which has not been happening.
I truly believe spiritually the world IS out to get me, I don’t know if it’s because maybe i’m needed back up there (where even is up) but it feels every single time i have an obstacle, i am given a 1 week - 1 month window to attempt to get over it before i am met with another large one. This has happened since the age of around 10 and grown stronger/more obvious in my waking days now.
It makes me wonder if I am meant for Gaia at all and if maybe by some cosmic mistake I was never meant to be here but stay up there, which is a disgusting and unsettling thought but I don’t know??
I don’t know what to think? i’m so tired and the worlds winning against me and wonder if anyone else can understand and relate