u/Express_Ad4880

She was incredibly romantic to me on my birthday, she told me to give her a hug and dropped everything and then kissed me passionately and we had been spending the entire day together, the weekend before together, buys me considerate gifts and everyday makes me my cold chocolate milk i love and buys me food, told me she dreamt of me for the first time ??? so harsh, i came to her house on her birthday with balloons, bought her something extremely expensive (irresponsibly) and we went to dinner together and overall shes just incredibly sweet towards me even now and is clearly attracted to me physically, always calling me beautiful, gorgeous, to dress better because im a pretty woman, been telling me she thinks of me more of the other woman, but then also tells me while we're cuddling that shes not in love with either of us, and when i ask her the last time she was in love was over a year ago, and also tells me she doesn't know why my parents think we're together, even though we're constantly extremely physically close and she tells me constantly she would date me if we weren't coworkers. She used to tell me in the beginning that it wasn't her girlfriend but now it suddenly is and i made a move on her when she originally got broken up with, shes my first experience. She spend an enormous amount of time together, and she tells me very sweet things. That i captured her heart, etc. We have been more than friends for about 4-6 months now or so. On her birthday she tells me 'you don't understand how touching it was' and then i get this sinking feeling, and she invites me over and i was right and she tells me thanks to me she opened her heart for once and i cry and she says this over me?? even though before on the bus she told me she feels romantic towards me etc and held my hand outside and we kissed on the bus and all???? Now shes telling me im like a sister??????? Suddenly now too she tells me she wants the opposite of her 'girlfriend' and that she wants togetherness and not just once a week even though i've been providing exactly that. I'm so confused, i was literally going to post a reddit saying i got the girl and that it's going perfect and that im incredibly happy and satisfied and then it changed basically overnight and i felt my heart genuinely be heartbroken and in physical pain and sick to my stomach and my legs getting weak, and now i get genuine anxiety from her texts sometimes although she says nothing mean, i don't know why it causes me distress. Anyway, complete shift. I thought the gemini venus wasnt too much of a red flag since at least it means she can move on from exes and that's her problem with her current partner that she got back with after hooking up with me but i fell completely in love. She says shes not playing me and that feelings arent a joke etc, so it's not in her nature to be mean and she means well, so don't villainise her please. It's not that serious of a relationship for both her and the other girlfriend, that wasnt even the girlfriend and theyve been on and off consistently. I just don't understand how she could hurt me like this but still keep contact and invite me over and call me everyday etc. Shes literally told me before that if i leave the country she'll come with me. My heart is shattered and confused. My friend did tarot cards and it just said to stop being insecure