u/Expensive-Oil5265

Like the smell of your own fart or your used panty liner (smells considered to be gross)?

Type 1 bipolar - severe depression - severe mania cycling non stop since 2018 - but something else has emerged and I have moments when I love everyone and want to be kind to everyone and then can switch in a moment and become a psychopathic bitch hating everyone and wishing evil on anyone and everyone and fantasising about hurting them.

On top of bipolar have I also become a psychopathic bitch? It’s such a shock to my system as I am aware of my evil bitch side that emerged in the last year but cannot do anything about it.

In my benevolent moods I make oaths to myself again and again that I won’t be an evil bitch and will not hurt people and resolve to do everything in my power to contain it but when the evil bitch me emerges there is no stopping her.. what I am becoming? Does anyone relate to this? Can you become a psychopath later in life?