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finally one year on T and it doesn’t feel like i thought it would. i was so excited when i started hrt (at 20) and i was so happy when i started noticing the first changes at 1-3 months in. then at 6 months i just started losing hope. every month was the same, my voice was the same, my face was the same except for the extra 5 chin hairs. by month 9 it really started to get depressing and i was being delusional by telling myself hrt was just taking time to do its thing. seeing all these transmen on the internet passing all the time while being 6months on T was so frustrating and i was so jealous (i still am) now im one year on t and i feel like it was all for nothing. i feel like shit all the time and i think ill be one of these ppl that never have any real change after being on T for years and ill never get cispassing, i know that’s not everyone’s goal but i don’t think ill ever be happy if i don’t look masculine enough and being 5’1 definitely doesn’t help. idk what to do i rlly just try to tell myself that ill get where i want to be someday but it just feels like lying to myself. any other transmasc/transman here that didn’t see much changes during the first year and then after some time the changes just… happened? i’m just really depressed idk what to do

every single time i try to voice train it feels like im faking my voice, like. i can go lower but that’s not where my voice sits naturally. this is hell. anyone else shares this experience?