My husband cheated on me with hundreds of women. What do I even do now
EDIT: not just women, also men.
So, my husband and I have been married for less than 2 years. We have a little boy who is not even a year old yet. Three months postpartum, I left for a few months because my husband was addicted to alcohol and I had absolutely no support after giving birth. I moved back in with my parents because I was, and still am, on maternity leave, and I cannot afford to rent an apartment with the small amount of money I receive from the government every month.
Honestly, things had already started falling apart during my pregnancy. I got pregnant almost immediately after we got married, and from that point on, he became a completely different person from the man I married. He grew distant, drank heavily, and emotionally checked out for most of the pregnancy.
A few months after I left, I hired lawyers and was ready to sign the divorce papers, but somehow we ended up promising each other we would give it another try and build a new marriage together. For a while, everything actually looked very promising. He became much more helpful, stopped drinking, and life finally started to feel somewhat normal again.
But yesterday, I unfortunately found out he has been cheating on me for I do not even know how long. Not only with women, but also with men. Mostly online, with hundreds and hundreds of people between the ages of 20 and 60 (we are in our late 20s’) I found messages involving “son/mommy” roleplay, other bizarre sexual fantasies, and conversations on multiple dating apps and websites, including gay dating sites, even though he insists he is not gay or bisexual.
I found out completely by accident. He fell asleep holding his phone without locking it, and a Hinge chat was open when I picked it up. That is how everything started unraveling. He later confessed to having physical relationships with three women and admitted that he is depressed, addicted, and that something has been missing in our marriage.
Now he claims he wants to seek professional help because he knows he has a serious problem, and he says he wants to work things out and save our marriage. But honestly, how do you even work through something like this after finding out someone has been living a complete double life? What makes it even more shocking is that he was always the kind of person who judged and shamed other people for cheating, while secretly doing exactly that himself with multiple women and countless other people behind my back.