I'm a trans man, FTM, with AGP, AAP, and "true trans" tendencies, a strange mix. I like to dominate and be dominated by men, and to dominate women. Being AGP has made me very insecure about my transition, even though I like being a masculine man and I don't regret anything. I have a post where I explain EVERYTHING in detail; open my profile and check it out.
I recently started Zoloft for extreme anxiety. I'm not sure if it's the most appropriate medication for me because it makes me extremely tired, but I have experienced positive changes.
One of them has to do with my libido. My libido has decreased; I don't have as much of a need to be masturbating all the time, although it hasn't disappeared completely. I still masturbate almost daily, and I can enjoy sex, but it takes me longer to cum. When I do, it's more intense precisely because I last longer.
When I watch porn these days, I feel more like a spectator, and not with an internal need to want to be part of the scene. I no longer feel the need to talk to strangers about wanting to be feminized and forcibly detransitioned, and I don't know how to feel about it. I guess it's okay, right? I still like being fucked by men and being dominated, but I'm less extreme. It's like my mind isn't completely uninhibited and I have a constant poker face. I still like women.
I'm less anxious about the idea of detransitioning because I see it as much less likely.
This is just an update on my situation, in case anyone is interested.
If anyone has any interpretation of this, please let me know. I'd like to know what you think.