I don’t want to be here
My fiancé died unexpectedly from cancer 8months ago, just 10 days before we were getting married.
It was second time for us both. We did everything together. No big groups of friends.
When all financials are sorted, I’d like to go.
No one really understands how I feel.
My parents died 4 years ago, 3 weeks apart. No illness. That was devastating and I thought the worst thing possible. but life carried on and I got back to normal.
i have no normal now, just an empty life with no one to love me in the only way your partner can.
I hate listening to folk talking about their booked holidays, I hate seeing caravans - we have a tourer and absolutely loved our holidays. I hate seeing old folk walking hand in hand - that’s all I ever wanted - to be normal with a loving caring respectful man…. and I had that.
We were due to retire early soon to enjoy our freedom after working and saving. To be free.
Ive stopped working as I have no patience with anyone or anything now.
I read, watch TV and drink wine.
I have a sister who I love but she has her own life to live, which is how it should be.
I miss my man every minute of every day.