So this is a vent because I know its my fault, but I genuinely don’t know if I can do this.
I’m an incoming MSW student and I applied early to two schools. I heard back in March. Somehow, I was already incredibly behind. I’m a first gen college student, nevermind grad student, and I have 0 support in terms of knowing how this works. I chose a smaller school despite getting into BC because this school is closer, and focuses on psychotherapy, the field I want to go into.
Online, it seems like people agree that going with a smaller school is fine, and that its the program that matters, but no one mentioned how few placements there are. Like there are 5 options in my city. 5. and most of them are already full, or the good ones are taken. Now, I know its my fault that I didnt apply earlier, but I feel paralyzed because I hate all of these options. I have no car so I am incredibly limited despite being right next to the train. I just don’t know what to do. What if I don’t get a placement? What if I messed up by choosing this school? What if I fail at this all because of a placement? I just can’t understand how everyone knew to apply to some placements BEFORE THEY EVEN GOT INTO THE SCHOOL??? And somehow I didn’t, and now I’m so behind that I feel helpless. ITS APRIL. I START IN SEPTEMBER. No one prepared me for this, including myself. Feeling very unmotivated about this.
I don’t think I need advice, I just needed to rant before I cry because I don’t know anyone who has even thought about going to grad school, so I have no one to talk to about this.