u/Existing-Ad4489

I was SA'd back in January and haven't been the same ever since. I had been going through a rough patch already and I was so vulnerable. I desperately needed to be hugged or touched by someone, and so I opened grindr and decided to meet the first guy who came my way. He was much older, and not even conventionally attractive, but again, I was so devastated and vulnerable at the time. When I met him he was so decent with me and we even had a nice conversation, but everything shifted the moment we got to his place. I can't get into the graphic details of what he did. I tried to act like nothing happened. I haven't told any of my friends, and I'm not willing to. I'm in so much pain. I'm sleeping through all the days to avoid talking to avoid being seen by anyone at home. I'm struggling to function, even though I've been on multiple antidepressants for 3 months now. I just want this to be over. I feel so trapped.