Throw away account for obvious reasons. I passed the bar last year and I've been working as a prosecutor in a large city since the beginning of this year. For years, this is all I wanted to do. I was passionate about helping victims of crime and I loved being in court (I worked as an intern who was certified to be in court before taking the bar). When I landed the job, I was thrilled! I thought this was the best job because my coworkers are amazing, my office is truly on the cutting edge of criminal law, and I *thought* I would have a great work life balance.
I was wrong about the last one. So, so wrong. I'm working in a rotation and that is well known at my office that this is the worst rotation and has made several people quit in past years. It has an extremely high case load where I am easily working over 65 hours a week with late nights and barely any time off on the weekends. When I force myself to "relax", all I do is think about my cases. I don't have time to exercise, I don't sleep well, and I have cried from stress too many times to count. Things are falling through the cracks simply because I do not have the time to do everything I need to do. It seems like everyone is mad at me all the time, supervisors, judges, defense attorneys, victims, witnesses, officers... It's driving me insane.
A huge reason I went into this job was for the work-life balance and because I wanted to help people. But I am so stressed out already, I can feel myself becoming indifferent to it all. My spouse has already told me that they are genuinely worried about me and my deteriorating mental health. I've found myself looking at job postings, wondering if I should have chosen another path. I didn't do this for the money (obviously), and I was lucky enough to get a full-ride to law school, so I don't need to worry about debt.
I'm just feeling burnt out and it's scaring me how quickly I have started to resent the job I thought I wanted for so long. Is this normal for other prosecutors or am I just being "weak"? Am I out of luck to switch jobs since I only just started? Open to any and all advice.