أخيب نهار في حياتي نحب نموت
Today was my last exam, I study Master 1 english, some info I’m first of my class, I never miss a class all my teachers love (ed) me and got the best grades in all subjects.
Last week my dad got sick, my sister is special needs and I had no time to revise altho I managed to revise a few things. Today I sat for the exam as usual I wasn’t intending on cheating, in the last minute I wanted to add some quote and the teacher instantly came running to me and took my phone, opened my search history and wrote rapport. I tried to ask explain that what he found was what I prepared my courses with and that I didnt cheat at least not yet but he was so harsh and cruel and took my phone and paper and wrote a report.
I was begging him so much tried to kiss his hands which still make me cry right now because I feel so cheap and humiliated.
All my teachers saw me crying under the administration wall and felt bad for me and no matter how much they try to talk to him he refused to let it go.
All of my classmates saw me get humiliated and cry and they were very good solidarity with me and tried to talk to the teacher but with no success.
I have a hearing session next week and I’m afraid I will lose a whole semester in that case this will be my goodbye forever. A whole year full of tears and sleepless nights and hard work going to waste for a stupid mistake meanwhile all the others who cheat and never get caught.
My dad is very ill and my mom couldn’t stop crying since the morning because of what happened with me.
Even the faculty members cried with me when they saw how down I was….
I’m so depressed I’m thinking of ending it… I can’t look in the face of my teachers again and my classmates how will I ever go back to study next year? And here I was excited about my DS grades waiting to be the first…
This is the worse day of my life 😭 also my last chance at Masters because Im already 32.