After celebrating finally pulling the guy I was interested in, and thinking I was getting over my crush on my guy friend, me and three other friends, including that guy friend, decided to drink (my first time drinking with him)
Unfortunately, I am a massive lightweight, and I ended up way more drunk than everyone else. I did the usual stupid drunk stuff like singing, dancing, and oversharing personal secrets, but for the most part, nothing that felt like a serious mistake.
At some point around 2 a.m., I woke up in his arms. I was cuddling him and being really touchy. Eventually, I sobered up a little and left, but after a bit, I came back and cuddled with him again. We ended up kissing.
And the part that makes everything more confusing is that I really liked it.
We talked about it afterward, and I found out that I was apparently very drunk. There are a lot of blanks in my memory, but he says he was completely sober.
So now I feel like I’m back to having some kind of feelings for him, but I also feel conflicted. A part of me feels taken advantage of, mainly because he was sober and I was very much not sober. I don’t really know what to do with that feeling, especially because I liked the kiss, but I also don’t feel fully okay about how it happened especially because it was my first kiss and he knew how much it meant to me.