u/Exciting-Area-6094

Hii I'm F(21) I've never dated before and while at my previous job I met a guy he is 20 only few months younger than me, I just got a pretty small crush on him and thought he is cute, there was this other guy also that liked me very much and he even confessed to me while the guy I liked knew about everything nd he also knew I had a crush on him but I was never planning to confess from my own side but eventually one day when we were walking home together he made me confess and he said he has starting to develop feelings for me aswell and things were going pretty good and one day he did confess to me saying that he likes me a lot but he can't be in a relationship as he has too much things going on in his life. Even though this was something shocking for me I knew his life was actually not going well so I thought maybe we should give us some time and maybe one day he will want to be in a relationship and but it's been I think 9 months alr since we have been doing this and whenever we have slight argument or any disagreement i usually just shut myself up and recently only when we were talking he just said that I'm a friend and when I started avoiding him after he said that he confronted me regarding this and I did let him know that I was upset because of what he said and he just said but u are still a friend even though I like you ,idk what to feel i just feel drained and very sad. He has been open about his feelings to me and he says he loves me a lot but I just can't help feeling like this and also he has went to his village recently and he keeps saying that there are so many pretty gorgeous girls in his village