It was a day, years ago
She looked at me and smiled,
Not caring about the tears in my eyes.
It was my arm she poked,
"Come on, soften up already," she said.
But she never knew who she was in my memories.
She giggled and smiled,
When I cried,
And all the tears dried up because she knew just how to make my feelings her toys.
Except she never knew,
Cause I let her have my heart to chew.
And now, I regret it, dropping so low until she could crush me apart and I'd still say, "thank you."
Thank you,
It was a day, everyday
But on the 5th of May,
A line was crossed.
Because the person I'd hated and loved at the same time was being crushed.
But even through all the emotions I carried,
I was ruined, devastated cause she was hurt.
She pulled me close and whispered with what she thought was about to be her last breath, "take care of your father and sister for me."
And with another breath and tears that I'd hidden, I sucked it up, "thank you," left my lips after being neglected once again.
Thank you,
It was a day, weeks ago,
The first time I'd felt happiness in long ago,
Her each reaction, each reply would send me to cloud nine,
And anyone would walk past that smile, "what? I'm fine!"
And even through all those memories,
She'd call me the sweetest,
But yet she'd push me away,
Choose someone better cause she must.
She'd tell me it's not what I want it to be,
Or maybe she just wants to be free
So she'd tell me how much she loved someone,
And I'd say with tears hiding once again, knowing it's not me, "thank you."
Cause that is me.
Thank you.