u/Exact-Wish-6237

Hello..some one might not like this post,but what keeps you going back to the gym grind during your suffering?

I used to gym alot,i had great and fast progress i managed to get my biceps to 45cm under a year (naturally),i started doing sesional works thats where i kinda fell off cause i had to move outside my town every year,after my dad got very sick (i used to gym cause of him he was a ex yugoslavian bodybuilder),after that i dont know i became very depressed and nothing keeps me going nothing i enjoyed,i want to go to the gym i tried multiple times but i failed.i gained alot of weight now (i drink alot of energies drinks) 104kg 175cm

My strength is still here…i want to go back to grinding but mentally i cant..

How do i force myself?