Hi all!
FTM here and looking for some advice desperately. I had my premmie via emergency c section 4 months ago which was very traumatic. I desperately wanted to bf him, it did not work out for us. I did everything, I went over and beyond…
Basically I punished myself with pumping, because I was not able to breastfeed him. It hurt a lot, - i mean, a lot!- but I went along hoping that one day my milk will came in. It never came, but now I am starting to realise that I ruined my nipples. I used to love my breast, now I hate them … i am disgusted by them!😔
I used to have simmetrical flat nipples, now it looks like they became(?!) bulbous nipples as indicated on the below pictures. The left one is even worse than the right one. I finished pumping more than a month ago and I am not noticing any improvement at all.
What can I do at this point? Can I do anything? Who should I turn to? I am heartbroken.😔
I did not have the courage to post a photo about them here, but now I have a “circle” around them (around the circle they are pretty wrinkly as if they have been sucked out) and they stick out like in the pictures, circled in red. Also the centre of my nipples now reddish/ darker and firmer/ harder.
Any idea/ help is greatly appreciated❣️
-Sorry for the flair, this was the best I could choose.-