Need some rship advice
Hello, I'm kinda nervous talking about this so here goes, I dated a Jane doe for 3 months and I'm madly in love with her but it got sticky, I (29 m) started dating my coworker (31 f) , at first we started dating in December and we both agreed to keep it on the DL since we work in a very gossipy workplace, I was single for almost 2 years in the exception of a couple no strings attached connections but she was in a 4 year old serious committed rship they just broke up in October in November she got back to working with us although I've known her before but we were never close and in December I bit the bullet and asked her out, at first it was a dream, she used to call me every day text me every second and I did the same, she loved bombed tf out of me and I fell for it, frankly I feel ashamed now talking about it because I know I shouldn't have fallen in love with her, I knew she was over her ex even though they were supposed to get married this past april but still, things happened and I broke my vow of steering away from rships to actually be exclusive and date, time went by and in the span of 3 months we had a pregnancy scare, I met her parents and I felt like I was picking up when SHE left off with him, so I made the mistake of opening up and telling her, mind you dear reader I never asked for a break up, as a matter of fact despite all of what happened I got her a golden promise ring and I said I'm ready if you want the families to meet and that's when the problems started, she texted less called less and I felt like I was chasing the woman I was in love with, I got to a point where I even doubted infidelity and that's when shit hit the fan, we had a fight and that was 3 weeks ago, we still work together I tried to talk to her and I was left on read so I poured my heart out and set her free and myself free, the plot twist here is that I love her, I can't stop thinking about her, she triggered an attachment trauma for me so I'm still madly in love with her and I don't know how to move forward, what do I do ? Am I wrong? Please I need brutal honesty I'm a very pragmatic guy I can take it