u/EveningGrocery460

Hello everyone. I am a 21 year old male who has been dealing with a porn addiction for several years now. I can say that my addiction reached it’s highest in the past couple months. But still, I feel like I’m making improvements with it. Very small things, mostly about changing my mentality around it, but I guess a small improvement is better than no improvement. At the very least I am fighting and trying to change things. But I am facing a problem and I don’t really know what to do, so I need some advice.
Right now, I have some upcoming exams and I really need to study well for them. At the same time, I am trying to quit porn. The problem is, it’s incredibly hard to do both at the same time. When I stop watching porn, I just end up with a ton of stress, anxiety and brain fog and it’s almost impossible to focus on my studies. When I am watching porn, in a weird way I can stay disciplined with my studies. But I don’t want that because porn literally fucks up every other aspect of my life. I thought about just letting it go for now and dealing with it in 1,5 months after my exams are finished. But I know how that would end. The school year will end and I’ll just say: “Well, why don’t I enjoy some more porn after a hard year, I deserved it.” I’ve been there before, that story ends up with me wasting an entire summer jerking off. I don’t want that. I don’t want to procrastinate on this anymore. I have to do something.
I need to find a way to balance things out. Instead of cutting porn out completely, I need to reduce it so that I can keep studying. I tried reducing before, but honestly it never worked with me. All the success I got in the past (which is not much), I got it when I went cold turkey. But I guess I have to find a way to make it work this time, at least until my exams are finished.
Are there anyone who experienced something like this before? How did you deal with it? I am grateful for any advice you guys have for me.