We were good friends in highschool, and now we are on opposite sides of the country from each other. I only get to speak with her through calls and texts.
I am secure in the sense where I am pretty sure she values me as much as I value her, and we have spoken about how reading but not responding makes me feel before, but nothing ever changes.
It makes me feel pushed aside/unvalued when she leaves me on read like this. She says she's like this with everyone, even her boyfriend. I am almost 90% certain she's genuinely a bad texter, but I can't help but feel upset because we don't get to call much (roommates) so texting is one of the few other ways we can bridge that communication gap.
I feel like my words have to be super ostentatious and provocative to get her attention, and I feel not unlike some clown fighting for the eyes of a room.
what should i do? do i just need to chill out?