Breakdown tonight
From my many posts, ever since I was exposed to eggs, I was hyper reactive. It’s calmed down and antihistamines are working for me again. But this time I feel super ill when taking it (cold, shaky, sweaty, weak, sick drowsy) I’ve been checked for adrenal insufficiency but my tests were ok and was tapered off steroids. But still have symptoms of low cortisol.
I had to move back in with my family since I became chronically ill. My family has been cold to me a lot of the times, including eating foods I’ve developed allergies to. Even though the hyper reactivity calmed down, I’m a lot more sensitive now.
I began reacting to one of my cats but not the other. I finally realized it might be because she likes to sit on the same couch seat that a family member eats peanuts in. My throat almost closed up the other day right after petting her but not sure if it was something else that might’ve caused it. I don’t know how to “sanitize” her effectively without obviously using chemicals, it breaks my heart I want to pet and cuddle with her but now I’m worried of when she sleeps on my bed and I possibly get exposed.
Tonight I saw a family member eating yet again peanuts on the couch and directly after my cat went to go sit there. I had her get off the couch, she went into my room and I closed the door so my cats don’t get out and stay with me. I genuinely don’t know what to do and I lost it.
I know I’ll eventually get things figured out but I also can’t live on my own currently. How can I get better and have a job and live independently again when the people around me aren’t helping? Or when my body doesn’t cooperate?
I genuinely don’t know what to do, I feel anger, I feel heart broken with my cat, I feel thrown away by family. Its so hard to go from normal to living like this