u/Ether-707

I'm really fucking sick of myself. Every day I try to do better but I end up not studying. I'm tired of myself. Although I don't know if it's because of my meds (because I have depression and BPD) I don't know how to study and focus. I used to be able to study for hours on end, but now? I can't even study for 5 minutes straight. I've already wasted months ever since I started recovering from depression. My doctor tells me to just rest instead of studying but I don't want to rest, I want to be prepared before school starts because I want to be able to get ahead in class because I'm an academic achiever. I don't know what to do anymore and I want to be able to do something productive for once. I can't even focus and I'm scared that it will affect my grades when I go back to school this year. Please send help. Huhu. Any advice will be appreciated.