I’ve just finished playing the first part and… I feel empty. I’ve got no one else to talk to about it, so I want to share my thoughts on everything that happens in the game.
Honestly, I love Chloe. I doubt I would have realised their relationship was unhealthy if I hadn’t read other people’s thoughts on the matter at some point. For that reason, the final decision was a difficult one for me. To be honest, I understand why people might find the main character (Max) shallow, but I understand her perfectly well in many ways. That’s exactly why I could put myself in her shoes so easily and felt awful. I chose to save Arcadia Bay, but I don’t know if I did the right thing or not. I realise that in this case it’s just a choice and its consequences, yet I still feel frustrated. I knew that, in any case, I would choose the health and lives of the people in this town, because that is probably something more valuable and important than Chloe’s life, whoever she may be to me (the main character).
I feel a bit wrong about the fact that I let her die but saved the town. Is that an equal choice? I feel guilty for choosing the town over her after everything we’ve been through. Even considering that she was far from a model of good behaviour, I feel pain for this little, emotionally immature girl. But it seems to me that watching a phenomenon destroy your home and the people in it is even worse. I don’t know why I’m writing this. I think I was closely connected for a long time to someone like Chloe. When I put her in Chloe’s place… I don’t know how to feel about it, because I know Chloe would see it as a betrayal. She feels rejected because of the situation with her father, Max moving away and the lack of any letters from her, the death of her best friend, and the arrival of a new person in the family who is so strikingly different from William. And now I have to do this and not that, but in her eyes it will always be a betrayal, because they’ve been through so much together. I feel guilty, which is why I want to protect Chloe and give her the chance to get through all the grief she’s been through... But instead... Chloe tells me to kill her and put everything back the way it was...