I feel like an NPC
With exams and graduation coming up I'm questioning if it's worth it or not more and more. Lately everything seems pointless. The exams, the university, all that suffering just to get to a lack of workplaces and rising cost of everything. I just feel like I'm studying just for the sake of putting a checkmark on something.
In addition to that I feel like I'm just not important. I have like 1-2 friends I actually talk to and spend time with. Everyone else either are just classmates or they just don't care. I've found 2 girls about 4 months ago and we've been talking a lot for a while but slowly they just stopped texting. And I get it, they're really busy and stressed but neither of them ever texts me and one of them just doesn't even answer. And it's not the first time this've happened. I wouldn't be so sad about it if not for one thing - I am the one trying to help everyone. I am always that guy that will listen, support, drop plans just to meet up. And in return? I get nothing. I'm just tired of always being ignored, always being the one getting left out. Not a single time I was invited just because. It's always that I'm getting invited only because the whole class is getting invited. I wanna matter to someone. I wanna mean something and not just be "that guy from school"