u/Equivalent_Zebra_483

my absolute favorite energy drinks are the monster rehab collection or the couple no fizz celsius ones, however the taste on the celsius ones often isn't too good but they help me when studying. i stick to sugar free/low sugar at all times which also limits my selection a bit regardless. carbonation often upsets my stomach, and if i buy a drink and plan to carry it in my bag for later its nice to know it wont explode on me when i open it after being jostled around all day.

i just wish this was more common with more flavors other than just tea variants, not complaining too much as i love milder more medicinal tastes but sometimes the super sugary fruity taste is also nice (i genuinely cant name any that are both flat and sugar free in this flavor profile). i know realistically this is unlikely, no reason for the brands to make flat versions of popular flavors just to cater to a tiny market when they already have options (including just leaving it open for hours until it becomes flat lol)

if anyone knows any other fizz free sugar free/low sugar drinks to try that are somewhat easily available in america that would be amazing

this is obviously about me so here's the backstory. had a lot of psychological issues throughout childhood and into adolescence, got particularly bad in the middle of my 18th year, drank daily for nearly a year and have since quit almost completely. i only got blackout drunk once on accident, 99% of the time id just carry a water bottle of vodka around and take a swig every couple hours to keep a bit tipsy all day in order to silence my thoughts.

i say quit "almost completely" because i have drank in small amounts maybe ten times since quitting the bulk of my alcohol consumption about 6 months ago. wanted to see if i could actually enjoy it as normal people do now that I'm not facing constant psychological torture at the hands of my own brain, found that i actually really hate the feeling of being drunk and have since decided to just swear off it completely as it has no benefits to me anymore.

read about how binge drinking in early adulthood increases the risk of early onset dementia even despite remaining sober until middle aged. however the study was done on rats and they were given alcohol again around middle aged after being sober for much of their adulthood.

so if i were to stay 100% sober, stay decently healthy, avoid other toxins and drugs etc for the rest of my life, how fucked am i because of this one dark period of my life??

usually my dreams take place in various non-existent locations but they differ each dream or are all slight variations on the same couple real places (childhood school, current house, etc) but this one is not real and yet more consistent than the semi real locations.

long dream ramble: its a sort of garden, lots of grassy fields and a forest in the background, its always a bit cloudy out but still bright. there's a lot of stone,,things? cubes, pillars, random stuff. it appears in many forms in nearly all of my dreams the past month or so. usually its an in-between location i pass through while going to another destination, or i run away there to avoid something else. once i ended up there after winning a sledding race done in an underground parking garage

i love reading about peoples dreams so pls share if you have similar experiences!