u/Equivalent_Salad_367

The most disturbing thing in my bipolar journey is the intense sensitivity to any input, from conversations, movies, books, videos on social media or even random thoughts that pop up in my head. A single negative word could ruin my day or even my week and a single encouraging speech could trigger a manic phase. I’m on medication and it honestly doesn’t do much rather than shorten the episodes (it’s better than nothing don’t get me wrong).
It’s like I don’t have a continuous personality and no confidence in any decision or thought process in my mind.
For example, I could watch a reel on instagram about a certain career, then It would be stuck in my mind for a while and it’ll feel so logical to change my whole career and go after what I saw in that reel. Of course, I wouldn’t do any action because I’ll be stuck in analysis paralysis. Then a week would pass and I would look back and say how the hell did that sound like a logical Idea, I was surely crazy to even consider that, I will surely never entertain that thought again. And there I am after a while entertaining that same thought again :)