Guys please give me advice
Hello everybody, I would be really grateful if you could help me understand this situation because I really don’t have anyone in my personal life who could help me.
From 19 y.o to 23 y.o I used to be in a friend group with 2 young women I met in college. It started with them pursuing me. I wasn’t interested in them in the beginning but they were texting me, calling me and coming to my place uninvited. I was very young and away from my family without any true friend, I mistook their incisiveness as relentlessness and desperation to find a friend so I ended up agreeing to become their friend.
Throughout my time with them they weren’t the best of friends but I still grew attachment to them and was never able to unfriend them even when they disrespected me and disappointed me repeatedly. I tried many times to communicate my concerns to them but they would minimize them or not recognize that they’re at fault at all.
After 5 years our relationship became opportunistic with them only getting in contact with me when they needed something (one time one of them told me that she went through her bf texts and found out that an ex friend of hers was warning him about her, telling him to watch out for my friend because she is an opportunist, which was eye opening for me). I finally decided to express myself firmly this time, so I wrote them a very long text explaining everything on my mind which I wrote sobbing because it was very hard for me to write and at the end of it, I told them that I’ll be needing space from the friendship to be able to reflect on it and that I’ll reach out to them when I’m ready. To my big surprise both of them left me on seen :’(.
One of them haven’t reached out to me to this day and the other texted me after 2 months telling me that she wanted to meet me to give me my stuff back ( she used to borrow clothes from me and not give them back until I begged for them and sometimes didn’t at all) I thought her giving me my stuff back was a good sign but I was doubting her intentions, so I told her that I wasn’t home but she can bring my stuff to my roommate because I wanted to make sure that she genuinely wants to make a good gesture and that she doesn’t want to come to my place again to use it and gaslight me, and to surprise again months have passed and she didn’t bring any stuff back.
That was the last time we interacted before I ended up blocking them after months of them not reaching out to me. I would be really thankful to you guys if you could explain to me what happened here, I would like to know if I’m at fault and how I should move on from this situation.
We still live in the same town and I would also like to ask you guys how I should react if I meet anyone of them outside. Thank you so much in advance.